ANGER IN MY BRAIN!

Warning!
You can don't agree what I had write, but don't try to angry about these.
These is all what my opinion and my feeling about this issue.

Opinion about GST?
This annoyed me since last year this now!
What's is GST?
GST as known as Good Service Tax by government.
GST will be charge with 6% in mostly sundry stuff in our life in Malaysia.
Yes, it is "good" for government.
They will own the 6% of income and how about the last consumers?
The last consumers will pay all for that and they can't even claim back the money.
How about if they are housewife that without salary?
They need to buy food and house sundry every time.
How about if their husband are in low salary?
Yes, some people might say that, if you are in low salary, just don't get a family or married or luxury life.
Don't make yourself fool please.
Economy are bad and everyone facing that.
Every daily sundry stuff increase and even petrol are increase too.
But, the salary never increase like what they do.
So, what was the citizens face on?
Lack of money!
Economy bad and will increase the criminal case too.
I hope that the salary of workers will increase while this GST start working on April 1 of 2015.
So it will be fair for the 6% for us.


This is what the problem I face now.
My family business is with small grocery shop.
We life normally by earning some and good for our life.
After GST been set on, everything change.
Everyone are stress about it.
My parents don't know about any advanced technology and they can't even play their smart phone well.
This will be a hard time for them to start learn about technology.
They need to learn computer from the beginning, and their brain can think like what youngest person did.
Even though how many times teaching them, they don't even remember every step about it.
I'm not a good person on teaching.
I will start angry, emotional, and tension.
Not I want to complain on that.
Yes, maybe this might help on the economy of the country, but please think from the side of citizens.

I really don't know how was the government official who in charge on GST doing.
The list of category about the GST was not complete at all.
I really don't understand that how they list it.
I hope they could improve their EN and BM on that.
I doesn't mean that my languages was good enough, but this was the basic of daily sundry name list.
Suddenly Bahasa Melayu and suddenly English.
This confusing us badly seriously!
Hard to search what we want to search for.

Website of the list:

http://gst.customs.gov.my/en/cp/SiteAssets/GST%20List%20of%20Sundry%20Goods%20(15%20JAN%202015).pdf


You will understand while you read this. 


Seriously, this make us stress and tension.
I hope there will be a solution that can solve this problem.

只想静静的

我的问题吧？
可是我真的沉不住那口气，所以才会顶嘴。
我真的很讨厌你那种说话的态度。
就算发生什么事都好，何必把你我说得那么难听？
我是你的孩子，如果我真的那样，我早在我懂事的时候已经不在了。
你那样的说法，真的令我很气，也很伤我心。
我知道你是在气头上，可是何必那样说呢？
从小到大，在这个家庭里，就是活在吵架中。
没有一次是真正的静下气来谈话。
不管是我，妈妈，哥哥，姐姐，大家都是有事没事都在吵架。
也许这也是我们交谈的习惯方式或生活方式？
我不懂。
你说朋友比你来得重要，我却觉得谁在我身边的都重要。
不管是谁都好，我都在乎。
不管是谁发生了什么事，我也会不开心。
我也会和朋友吵架，意见不和的时候，这都是你看不见的。
而你却看到的是我对他们好的时候。
也许我也该真正的离开家里，在外头工作了。
我相信这会让我们都减少冲突，而会变得更珍惜和减少纠纷。
有时我真羡慕哥哥姐姐们，他们却是能那么早离开家里出去读书。
而我却必须在你限定下，选在家乡的学校读书而浪费了整整两年时间。
我自己清楚知道，那两年根本不是我想要的。
可是我有什么办法？我也随从了。
我并不是想抱怨什么，只是想知道，难道我在你心中真的没有一份是好的吗？
我相信，吵了一架后，我们又可以有说有笑的。
因为家人不会有隔夜仇，我相信如此。


他，说我不对。
对，我是不对。
他说我不改，对，我改不了。
因为我就是那种沉不了气的人，直性子的什么都很直接的说。
我真的接受不了那种说法，因为我没那么想过。
可是难道我真的没想过要改吗？
有谁会想和家人吵架到老？
我不勉强任何人来接受我是什么态度，可是你那样说，还真伤了我的心。
天下有哪个小孩希望和家人天天吵架？
天下有哪个小孩不想和家人天天有说有笑？
我选择了告诉你，是因为我相信大家的年龄相近，会了解吧？
可是也对，告诉一个不是这家庭的人，难免不了解。
我只希望有人可以静静的听，然后给我少少的意见，那已能让我的心平负下来了。
我真的很谢谢他，能陪我聊天。
我已很久没那样和任何一个人聊天到三更半夜。
真的超爽的，而我超喜欢的。
可是经过了这次，我不懂我们还会那样吗？
因为我已有尴尬的感觉出现在我们心中。


在那一瞬间，我突然好想联络他，可是我知道并不能。
我终于明白为何他会一直留在我心中。
他总是能平复我生气或不开心的心情，那是他最厉害的特点。
他就是有那种魔力，让我沉住气。
他以前总是静静的聆听，安慰，然后给意见，却让我无从的接受了。
我总是能那么的依赖他，可是那一切已不可能了。
我并不想挽回什么，只是我怀念了。


现在的我，只想静静的，试着自己沉住气，也试着让我自己长大了。
我不想依赖别人，也不想再让别人伤害我。
我有我自己的想法，而我不强逼别人来接受我是谁。
而我只想改变我自己想改变的。

希望哪天那个肯黯然接受我的性格的人出现。

Cameron!

17/03/2015

A happy day with my juniors.

In my memories, I don't remember that many friends do visit my home before.

But this is the very first time I had some college friends that visited to my home.

OMG OMG! 

So exited about it.

We plan to went to Cameron on that day to have a one day trip.

Fun day at there.

Fresh air, a bit cold weather with some wind, and sunny day! 

Love them so much.

But too bad that there is one of my favorite boy that didn't visit me since he still having internship. 

Favorite people but less one =(

5 of craziness people that visit to Cameron Highland for half day trip I think.

Sohai + pretty girl I with. 

She so funny and nice.

Flower lady 🌸🌸

A bit blur! But look great! Hehehe!

Can't wait for our Bangkok trip with them again on April. ❤️❤️

I miss you!

Today, my baby princess have send to Ipoh veterinary clinic to check up again.

Yes, she sick.

She been conclude that she had a urinary track stones like 2 month ago.

She pee with blood and can't control on it.

At first time of, doctor trying to give her some medicine to see that is it can cure with medicine but fail.

Second time of consult, that time we though she could take the operation to remove the stones but the blood test said that she get a infection by flea, blood parasites!

I just like OMG! 

Poor little girl, she so ill but still need to took medicine for 1 month to cure this sickness.

1 month pass and today, I have to send her back again.

She gonna stay there for few day and doctor had made a appointment for her to take the operation on Friday.

I so worry about her and scare that she couldn't take it.

9 years plus that she stay with me.

My best companion, my best friend and also my best family.

Hope that she will be alright and recover faster.

Feel so lonely that she not beside of me tonight. 

I miss her a lot :'(

God bless her k?

Mommy will always love you and hope to bring you home soon <3

Her face while sending her to clinic.

Look so pity =(

Her cute little face while she sleepy beside of my.

My selfie with her, but she don't like to face on camera.

Miss her lot lot! 

甜甜的

感觉心里甜滋滋的 😊

不懂为什么今晚的心里就是那么开心。

闭上双眼，嘴里还是笑笑的。

当知道原来他对我有关注或关心，就感觉一阵开心。

疯了吗？哈哈哈！

不管如何都好，今年，我一定要逃出来！

逃出那恶魔的故事。

最近，又开始追回欧美剧！

吸血鬼日记， The Vampire Diaries！

有谁和我一样爱看这部片子？

里面的主角都好帅，尤其是 Steven & Damon Salvatore。

原本讨厌 Damon 角色的我，最近觉得原来不错哟！

其实就像社会上的事一样。

刚开始的印象就是，这人好讨厌，好自私，就不顺眼，可是当相处了一段时间，才发现原来这人的优点好多。

所以，要了解一个人，不是一分钟就能清楚的。

而是需要花点时间，才能看清一个人。

在这第六季，有一首个是让我特别喜欢的。

那就是 “Unbreakable" by Jamie Scott。

这首歌的歌词意思对我来说蛮感动的。

如果有那么一天，有个人，对我唱出这首歌，而也会做出像这首歌的歌词一样，我会完全感动了🙊🙊🙊

如果有那么一天吧😂😂

Hope there is someday and someone will make me Unbreakable. ❤️❤️

Who am I?

Who am I? 

This is a good question, I don't think many people know how to answer the question, even I sometimes.

I don't know how many people understand themselves well, but I can say that, I'm not.

Me?

I'm a seriously temper + emotional girl.

I easy get angry, sad, and happy.

But my temper, easy come easy go and it will go away after awhile of cool down.

For the first I met someone who wanna be friend with me, I will just tell that that I'm such of that kind of girl. 

I don't force everyone to accepts who's the people I am.

But you could stay beside of me forever if you willing to.

Most of people will says that I'm look like a arrogant girl at the first sigh, but after they take sometimes of communication and understand, I will become a crazy friends of them.

Yes, I'm a crazy people.

Sometimes I will just fool around and make fun with the people I used to close with, even a news friend.

I think the bad things is, I easy to believe on anyone with any relationship.

I still remember that, I cried for a girls for few days on secondary schools coz I though we are best friends but she just wanna used me to get something good for her.

For now, some people will call me as a sohai, I don't mind of it.

But sometimes, I really will get upset for that.

I always believe that, that's is nothing wrong to believe on someone.

Even that person are doing wrong, I believe that there's one day, the people might change and be good.

I give hope on people, doesn't mean I'm stupid coz I just wish to help on people who really need help.

Seriously, sometimes I really sad for that.

I trust on feeling and I hate people cheat on any relationship.

Ps: accept some lies to parents. All of the children will make some lies to parents just not to let them worry. XD

I hate people who take me as a fool and don't take it serious on me.

I care on everyone, so I hope that they just give me some care is enough for me.

I don't beg for many thing, just please don't cheat and fool me around.

Don't take me as granted, I not a puppy of you.

Just take me as friend from your heart and just leave me if you just need me to fill your boring.

Yeah... Sometimes I will unhappy to people who don't want to reply my message after they read.

Seriously, I really hate the feeling of waiting.

I just feel like they just reply you while they boring, and they just don't even give a shit at all while they fun.

Just like him ><

I not compare anyone with somebody, just I really hate the feeling.

Maybe some people will never understand that feeling, but some people will do.

I will found the people one day in the future.

I'm a girl who always feel insecure and lack of protection.

I will put a lot of pillow and soft toy surround me while I sleep.

This is how I feel safe and warm in the night.

For now, there is 4 pillows on my bed, some soft toy and 2 blanket.

Just need something full on my bed. 

Weirdo right? 

I love animal so much, for first,  I don't know what animal I scared of.

But for the insects species, the most afraid me is SPIDER! 

The fucking spider! 

I don't even scare of spider while I am kids.

At the times, I still playing spider around with brother.

I wonder why I will scare of it right now and I think the most probably is the spider movie!

The fucking giant spider that will eat a human! 

Childhood memories just kill my life duhhhh....

So please, move away the spider it not I will become a real crazy bitches in front of you.

What I like? 

I'm a lazy girl, I just like to sleeping, laying, napping, and the most important is FOOD! 

Food always my favorite! 

If I staying in bad mood situation, just buy me some good food or bring me to some good dessert restaurant. 

I will turn to a happy kids after while with good food.

I love movie and travel.

Why I love movie?

Movie can make me feel peaceful.

For like couple, we just sit side by side, hugging together, no argument, no fighting and just to watch movie together peacefully. 

At the moment, I just feel warm and romantic without wasting money on shopping.

I think everyone love travel right?

Travel can make people feel free and fun.

The mood will totally feel relax while standing on other country that without stress, and the environment that we used to know.

Stand on the street that full of strangers and adventures, that's make people feel exited! 

While I young, the place I wish to go is Taiwan, Korea, and Japan. 

I had been go to Taiwan and Korea, left Japan and I wish to make it in the future.

While I grow ups, I will wish to go to Maldives, Santorini, Australia, England, French, Bali, and some others more.

Some beautiful and romantic place that I wish to go with the person I love in the future.

Hope that my wish will come true in a day of my future.

God bless please.

Who am I? 

I only can think that who the person me are right now in the essay.

I can't remember some others yet. 

So I will do update after I remember it yo! 

Sorry about my broken English. 

My standard just in this level and will do improve again.

By the way, I think this blog just to remind me my day and pass. 

I will use this to improve my life too. =) 

Lucky One

Yes, I'm the lucky one.

What I can proud in my life with the luckiness stuff.

I'm glad that there is some people that appear in my life.

Parents, Siblings, Friends and my Princess (shihtzu dog).

Parents love.

I can't denied that I'm the lucky kids by my parents.

I'm the princess in my dad and mom eyes.

I know that my dad super duper love me.

He can get anything I want if he could make it in his life.

I love him too.

I'm so sorry for my bad temper.

I know I always had some argument with them, but doesn't mean I don't love them right?

I don't know how to change my bad temper.

It's just like come to my mind and i couldn't control it.

Maybe is the environment I stay, or maybe just and excuse for myself?

I don't know, but I would give a try and try again.

Maybe the time I get to the society and work for people?

Who knows?

Maybe the time I be a parents of my children?

Who knows?

Or maybe the coming days.

But, thanks to my parents who always be by my side.

Siblings love.

I have 1 eldest sister and 2 brothers and I'm the youngest one in the families.

In my memories, I not really talk to my sister and brothers when I'm kids.

Maybe the far distance of aged.

Our minded are totally different.

My attitude just like a boys when I'm kids.

I play around with brothers and playing those boy games.

So, mommy always bring me and cut my hair in to boy style.

Family members always used to call me as tomboy when I'm kindergarten.

But now totally different right?

I'm growth, have a long hair, make-up myself, wearing skirts and became a ladies.

No more people will call me as tomboy in the house.

I still remember that I had fight with brothers always.

After the fight, I will cried and cried.

In the end, my brother get punished by my dad.

That's why my brother hate me while I'm kids.

Even how, they still love me.

They buy me presents, buy me food, pay my travel fees and good stuff even we still always had some argument right now.

But all of these doesn't mean they didn't love me right?

I think this is how our communication.

So far, I don't think we will get change till we get old.

Our style to show our love maybe.

Funny right?

Friends love.

I got a lot of friends.

But I don't even know who is the closer one with me.

Who's care?

I know they love me, and this is important enough in my life.

In my birthday of this year, I could see how my friends take me as a person in their mind.

They remember and give me many many of surprise and love.

The most important gift is, FOOD!

I grow fat and fat coz of lot of food treated by friends and family.

I really appreciate what they did to me.

Primary school friends, secondary school friends and college friends.

Lots of love getting by them.

Besides that, I had earn a bunch of funny friends again in this year.

That's my juniors.They are fun, cute, and generous.I could stay awake for few days without sleep just because of they craziness.O.M.G!Even exhausted but I'm happy with that.I don't know how a person I look like in their mind.Maybe weirdo, stupid, funny, or bad temper， and I don't know.But, in my deep mind, they are really like my brothers and sisters.Love them till the max!I hope they will love me like what I do k?Hehehehe!I knows I couldn't control what they think or how.But I will try my best to maintain all the relationships in my life.

Princess pup.

My princess ever in my life.Her name is Debby and I used to call her baby or "baobei".She is the first pet I had ever long in my life.She had stay around of me like more than 9 years.2007 till now.She is an Shihtzu breed, naughty and a food hunter.I think she will follow whoever the person that give her foods!She is food of monsters!!!What I hope is, she could accompany me by my side till I dead.I know I'm greedy with that, but she really my best companion like family.I love you, my girl <3

For this, I wanna sorry for my bad attitude and temper to all the people around me.I know sometimes I really a hater but it not what I mean.Face problem maybe, when I keep quiet, everyone will though that I'm angry or emo.But, I'M NOT!Sometimes, I just thinking or just want to be alone.I'm not that kind of emo 24 hours k dude?So guys, please, stop saying I emo always!Its really annoying!If I really get anger, just leave me for awhile.My temper easy come easy go and I know I cannot force everyone to accept it.But, use more time and try to understand me.I'm not that bad like what you think.Whoever good to me, I will double pay up and good to you too.But whoever bad to me, I also will double pay up to ignore and bad to you too.So, try to understand me more.


In the end, Love the person who around me. XOXO!

Hangover

27 February, a very unforgotten night for me.

The very first time I hangover and forget everything that I do even I still function before that.

Even I drunk last time, I still can remember back piece by piece. 

But not till hangover like this.

I got some crazy style after I drunk, there's talkative or get cry with unhappy mood.

I will show off what inside my deep heart that I never tell.

I still remember that, the first time I drunk, I had cried.

I don't know why I cry for but my friend told me the next day that I cried and told them that I had argument with my dad.

Yes! I really do argue with my dad before that and I unhappy for that.

So do this time, I totally hangover and cried.

I don't know what I cried for, but my friend told me that I cried because of my ex.

I miss him.

I don't even know I still miss him in my deep heart.

The person who hurt me so bad so bad.

The person I very love in my 24 years.

There is about 2 year plus that I cannot let him go from my heart.

I really don't know why I need to cry for him, but I hate that! 

I hate that he still appear in my life! 

I don't need him! I happy with my life right now. 

I hope that I can don't give a shit for him anymore.

I'm trying and trying, hope that the day come faster.

Seriously, I hate that! 

The shame thing is, I cried in front of my juniors.

The person who look strong and fierce always in their mind.

Actually, I not that strong like what people think.

Sometimes, I just hope there is someone could share our story together.

I know that's hard to get a person like that, but I will try my best.

I'm so sorry that I've give some trouble to my juniors about my drunk face.

Shame things ever in my life! 

I cry like a bitch and I totally lost my memories! 

Fuck that shit!

How hope I could remember the last bottle I take, coz my friends say I look normal on that time before I leave the lounge! 

Before this shit happen, I had passed with a best night! 

First experience that I taste some good wine and shots in a very high standards place.

Marini's 57 in Kuala Lumpur.

The restaurant or lounge just stay beside of KLCC.

Best view ever from the window and see clear with KLCC. 

5 bottles and 23 shots that taken by 6 person.

How pro? I don't know.

But I happy with that and I get news friend again.

In the night, I thanks to my friends that invite me for that.

Best experience I had! Woohoo....

Best view ever!

My juniors, also the person who invite me to enjoy the moments.

Thanks a lot <3

His friends! Nice to meet the guys behind of me.

Funny person =D

Pretty girl! 

Sorry for the blurred of the picture coz I've drunk maybe.

I had lost the memories that I took photo with her. OMG! 

For this, yes! 

I also had forgotten I asked to take wefie with him! 

My ugly face! Forgotten this too!

I feel like punch myself for lost memories! So sad! 

My enjoyable moment! 

Please come back to my head, but ignore the memories that I had cried =D

Wine wine wine!

Taste so good serious!

For the night, I really thanks a lot for people who invite me.

Thanks for the bills too!

It's really expensive with few k.

I love you guys! XOXO