Tuesday 24 February 2015

友情?感情?

好朋友,相信每個人都有自己最愛和最親密的朋友。
而我?也許也不例外。
其實,我自己都不清楚何為好朋友。
我把好朋友的定义列为在亲密,而且分享个人的秘密。
分享自己的秘密的就只有几个,五根手指都数得完了。
女生占有了两位,而男生就只有一位。
其实我都把好朋友都成了情侣一样,我会吃醋,生气,伤心,都只为了他们的一点小动作。
也许我疯了?我真的不清楚。


还记得在恋爱前,我的朋友超多的。
而恋爱后,全部朋友都消失了。
不是因为我不主动,也不是因为我男友不让我交友,而是他们觉得我恋爱了,不需要朋友?
分手后,想找个朋友,却不懂要找谁。
没一个人在身边,却自己伤心了很久。
所以现在的我觉得朋友可以走一世,而情人也许不能。
所以人还是需要朋友来得划算😂


她?每次都让我担心。
是因为她的感情生活乱了。
她身边大部分都是男的,而她的市场从来没少过。
她是个会令人开心的人,所以个个都好爱她。
她也是个很容易因为感情而不开心,烦恼的人。
当我们一见面时,我们都无话不说。
我们虽然认识了才几年,可是却一件缘故。
我们还曾被别人误会说我们是女女情侣的关系,可是我们却只是好得像情侣而已…哈哈哈😂😂
感情当然是我们离不开的主题,可是大部分的琐碎事,我们也聊了。
可是,有一样东西是我讨厌的,就是她从来不主动。
我们都认定了对方为自己的好朋友,可是又时却让我否定了是不是真的如此?
有时我会生气,她的不回复,却只回复了追求者,让我觉得,我不重要吗?
难道比一个刚认识不久的人还差?
所以,我吃醋了…
难道我是爱上她了?哈哈哈!
只是我觉得她蛮重要的!


他,刚认识不久。
感觉蛮健谈,聊得开。
不懂为什么会告诉他那么东西,感觉良好。
感觉这人能信任得过。
信任能给的不多,而不是每个人能接受。
可能这只是那么一杀呐的错觉,现在的我们却不熟,不聊天了。
也许只是个过客。
我不会向上次发脾气而道歉,因为我觉得自己没理由道歉。
自己已说明了,可是还是一样。
虽然这让我难受,不开心,可是能怎样呢?
我已经尽量让我们保持像之前一样,主动的找话题聊。
可是却没得到回应,所以还是算了。
主动的我,感觉好讨人厌。
还是算了的好😒😒
想找我的人自然会找我,何必把热脸贴别人的冷屁股?
超无聊吧我?


他,也许不是最好的情人,可是可以是我最信任的人。
他伤得我好重,可是,我对他的信任,还是在的。
虽然讨厌他的作为,可是无可否认,他是我最想对话的对象。
也许对他的依赖太多,可是他给我的安全感,暂时在别人身上找不到。
我喜欢告诉他我所有的事,而他做那静静的聆听者,然后再给我一些意见。
可是如果可以的话,我更希望他会告诉我他的心里事。
这些也只是过去事,现在再也找不回了。
他有他的生活,而我也有了我的生活。
虽然有时还会有那无比的想念,可是只能收在心里。
虽然他的不好那么多,可是他的好,我也发现了一些。
我对他的爱,也许没人明白,也不需要人知道,只能让他随风漂。


朋友,还真是一门功课。
需要去翻阅了很多页,才能发觉他们的好坏。
有些朋友的感情只存在了利用价值,有些却用了真心来付出。
有时还真需要用点运气才能遇到真心付出的。
我不懂自己真遇到了吗?可是只希望不遇到坏的就可以了😊😊














Monday 23 February 2015

Time flies!

Chinese New Year just pass so fast.
Just for while of enjoy, 5 days passed like that.
Feel so empty suddenly and lonely.
When the first of full house became empty house.
Cousins leave and back to works.
I miss the voice and gamble voice!



How fun that's jokes around and playing around with the cousins.
By the way, in these Chinese New Year, I think everyone should be goes with something same.
That's grow fat! 
Holy shit! I ate from morning till the midnight! 


For true, after grows up, I've not that expect for Chinese New Year.
Everything change every year.
Friends started working, holiday became less and don't have the chance to meet up.
This year, I miss out a lot of friends. 
Some of them just home for few days and some of them don't even home from overseas.
I miss them so much.


Lucky that I still got some friends that here with me, if not, I will dead with borings! 

Here's come to my friends photo! 

29 night with the girls... Hope the friendship never end! 

30 night drinking session with the girls again =)

Miss out some people =(

Daddy and I <3 
Thanks for taking me as a princess.
I love you dad =D

Cousin brother and me! 

Birthday celebration to my girls! Love yo! 

Group photo! Red theme! 
Please ignore those extra color! Hahah!
They out of the theme.

Red red red ❤️

Another drinking session! 
Addicted to alcoholic? Hmmm

Dinner night and cheong k night with the babes <3

The girls I used to worried always.
Hope she will stay happy forever 😘


Is time to show up my selfies!
I think this is the most less of selfie of me in this Chinese New Year! 
Just so boring with it and lazy! 

Cheers! 🍻

Green outfit to grandma house 💚

Selfie with the sleepy bear! So cute right? 

Japanese style? I don't know.
But I just love it! 

Last selfie on my phone!
Omfg! Totally less of selfie to post up! 😭😭


For this Chinese New Year, the most happier thing is, angpow!
This year angpow increase by parents since I help out on shop.
Hehehee! Happy girl!
Btw, I wish everyone Happh Goat Year and I love everyone in my life! 
I will cherish everyone who good to me.
I love you! XOXO 




















Tuesday 17 February 2015

Busy + Tired

Busy busy busy! Finally got the time to update my blog. Chinese New Year are around the corner! Everyday help out my parents at shop in the morning till afternoon and help out brother to bake biscuit in the afternoon. 
Not enough of resting everyday.



Pineapple tarts! It's really delicious and I can't denied that! 
I'm this period, I felt sorry to my friends. 
I tired and temper on every chatting. 
I get angry easily to my friends and refuse to out with them coz of tiring.
Omg! I'm bad right? 
Sometimes, I get nightmare in the midnight and insomnia =( 
Sometimes, I just waked to reply someone message.
Oh ya! I had some problem to that fella and we not really talk already. 
Hmm... I can't do anything with that.
I can't force everyone to follow my step, but I just hope people to understands that.
I like that person, but hmm... No commend with that.


Chinese New Year around the corner and I just get my hair done with new color! 

Purple + red bottom of my hair.
Nice? I don't know. Just wanna try with some new style. 
Hehehee ❤️


Sometimes, I just glad that I got some friends around of me! 
I love everyone beside of me. 
I could do whatever I can for them.

The girls! My buddy! 😘
Hope everyone arounds me would be stay happy and healthy forever! 
Happy Chinese New Year my friend 🎉
Will update my blog again while I'm free. Too many stuff to do😭



Sunday 1 February 2015

Someone ; Past ; Future

Everyone had a past tense, either me too.
Some people told me, don't just remember the past, just make a new future.
For me, my past just so important to me.
My past make me how I look like in the future. 
Yes, some unhappiness just put in the past, I agreed with this. 
But, those memories could make me become a stronger person and independent person.


There is someone I used to close recently.
I don't know why, I would like to share so much of my problem to him.
Yes, in my first mind, I just believe that this person trustable and feel safe while talking with him.
I just want to know more about that person, what a person he are.
So I try to ask more...
Currently there is some problem. 
Or this might be my problem?
I think so... Coz of my crazy temper.
I'm a story teller, I'm talkative, but just to the person I trust.
Sometimes, I just worried others will feel boring and annoyed by my this attitude.
I just very scare of this situation would happen on me and people will leave me.
Sometimes, I mean no harm.
I just say whatever in my first mind.
I felt sorry that day to him coz I say something might make him misunderstand. 
I like this person, I cherish the friendship.
I feel that I wanna share all of my stuff to this person.
My pass, my currently mood, just to let the person know me well by pass and now.
But it seems like annoying, he stop me to tell him my past.
Yes, I know I shouldn't talk so much.
After this, I don't know what to chat again between us.
Cool situation for now....
Oh ya! By the way, I hate that people had read my message but don't even bother to reply.
Sometimes I really did have something to tell, but been stop by this situation.
I more prefer people to reply that busy or don't read it! 
I hate the feeling of waiting, it will make me fall in bad mood.
Seriously! 
It's hard for me to keep initiative to text a person. 
Let's everything go by the flow.
If someone cherish on me, they do will find me.
I don't want same kind of situation happens on me again.
I really did very scare.
No one could understand how afraid of me.
I couldn't force anyone to love me like I need.


Someone, she hurt me.
She is my best friend and we used to share our stories always.
She tell me about her school life, her boyfriend and everything.
After she met him, I don't think we will goes same again.
I don't mind she keep some secret between us, but at least don't let me know the last.
If anything happens, I could help around but inform me before that k?
I worried about her.
She kind of crazy funny friends for me.
I hope she know what she doing right now.
I will always there right here while she need me.
Just hope she could text me again and share with me.
I love her so much.


2015, please let's everything go smooth and happy! 
I don't know what will happen to me in my future. 
But just hope everything just fine.
I don't greedy to get everything good, but I just need happiness! 
God bless =) ☺️